“Let go. Relax. Take a breather. You can always get back at it with things being alright.”
I’ve never been good at doing that. I have not been good at ‘getting away from it all.’ Thank goodness for life’s seize-the-moment occasions where you just surrender yourself to the feeling. And you remember nothing else but that certain moment.
I’ll be on my way to Scandinavia in a few hours. I was told that Stockholm is one of the world’s most meaningfully beautiful places. I have been getting ready for weeks now, waiting for the answer to the question, “When will I be ready?” Even my husband keeps asking, “Are you not excited? Are you ready?”
After making a list of things to settle with work and business, a mental note of how to prepare the children while I am away and anticipation of how much to spend and not to spend, I thought maybe then I will be ready.
But I’m still not.
I tried making a photo list of my places-to-explore, things-to-do and delicacies-to-taste and then a sudden round of hospital bout beckoned once again. I had to take care of my mom. Thankfully, health concerned were cleared in several days.
I went back to preparing.
Getting away from it all is kind of difficult for me. I want to be nearby my usual everyday, to be sure I’m there when something needs me. That’s my main problem. Three people advised me to seize the chance to take a break.
After my last errand on the list this morning, I stopped doing. I simply waited for my husband to arrive. He asked again, “Are you ready?”
I looked at my hands, “I have to get my nails done.”
He brought me to a salon for a good nail cleaning. After, I looked at my nails again. They’re ready! Then I must be too.
Routine is beautiful but everyone needs a certain moment to breathe. I remember how I sit on the field sometimes, looking at an airplane, wishing I was in it. Now, I’m given a chance for a getaway.
Let me try again to get away nicely so I can come back fresh, enriched.